The Face

I was asked to put up a picture of myself so people could tell who they reading from and so here is one that is not TOO horrible

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wow its been a  minute. this page is not really developing as i had hoped. lots has happened. i have hurt my back at work, discovered that i am  gluten intolerant, and also i have dedicated myself to Loki. fun times

 

What a way to end the year…

i havent been here in awhile, but its been crazy. my mom in law lost 4 puppies to parvo, and the mother died. the charm i made was not as effective as i would like, but thank Frigga that it worked as much as it did do. two pups lived and are doing awesome. when i figure out how to post pictures from my camera phone, they will be here. i had an awesome samhain ritual last night. i met a woman in PH, which is close to me, her name is Savannah. She is the high priestess of a healing coven, because witches heal, its what we do. we even went to the crystal fox in laurel, which is out of the way, but it was totally worth it. the store i want to open is almost exactly like that place.  i’m taking a 101 class with her too, and its really helping, a lot of things are falling into place for me. eventually i’d like to become licensed clergy. i’ll hive off into my own coven, and my own 101 classes. 🙂 i still have my own personal samhain ritual to do, because there is a no body fluids rule at savannah’s, which is fine. i need an office job. something monday thru friday, no nights no weekends. lol. filing or whatever.

 

feel the love

well, my wonderful momma happened to stop by, which is really kind of by chance, since i called out of work today. i had to let her in, and then tell why the house is fit to be condemned. there is no propane, therefore, no hot water. there is a leak under the sink in the kitchen, so there is moldy water in my kitchen all the time, the heat cant be turned on because we have electric baseboard heating, and i’m afraid to catch the wall on fire, since i have no idea if the drywall has damaged the wiring. so, we went out, and we got an electric space heater, and stuff to deal with the mold. she even bought me rose scented wax cubes, which i thought wee a little ‘ehh’, but when i had them on the warmer, the smell reminded me of the first time i ever tried witchery, and it was with a cheap dollar store rose scented candle. i love it. it feels like my house is full of love when its on the burner. it made me feel good. my house is still pretty bad, but i’m working on it. when its done i’m going to do my best to keep it clean. i’m also going to try to dedicate more time to this page, maybe i’ll get more followers. i’ve lit candles to frigg and freya, and hopefully, they will empower me to CLEAN!

i’m still doing paper research, but when there is more available time, i’ll add more to the pages, and definitely rearrange the spell book page.

Thursday the Thirteenth, lucky for me

i was born on a thursday, and thirteen is lucky. today is a good day for me. i slept well, which no small thing for me, and i was awake about ten minutes before the 8:00 alarm went off. i just feel good. i don’t work today, at either job, and i’ve stayed home. i intend to clean the house. its a cool, foggy and rainy day. Perfect. i love days like today. it makes me feel like i can reach out and touch the hand of the gods. i am currently (and hopefully permanently) dedicated to the norse pantheon. i feel like this kind of weather is just in my soul. dont get me wrong, i like sunshiney days, too, but if it rained 5 of 7 days of the week, i would love it. and to prove i’m lucky, i left the lights on in my car by accident over two hours ago, and when i saw they were on while i was walking scotty, i ran in and got my keys. i shut the headlights off, and started the car! any other time it would have sputtered and died. i prayed as i started it, maybe that’s it. i definately want to make a car charm today. maybe i should a weekly ritual on thursdays. not a blot <pronounced bloat>, but just a dedicational. but to whom? i dedicated myself to Odin and Frigg, until i finish my research, but perhaps Thor? i even found a great little video on Youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOud7nOIdds

i feel like everything is beautiful and wonderful for me today. which is incredible considering what my house looks like. so i’m going to open all the doors and windows, burn some incense, light my candles, perhaps meditate a bit, and CLEAN!!!

1. get rid of the trash
2. put the dishes in the sink instead of all over the house
3. have more coffee
4. clean the living room
5. vacuum the living room
6. have more coffee
7. put dinner in the crock pot
8. clean the bedroom
9. vacuum the bedroom
10. have more coffee
11. check on dinner
12. bag up the dirty laundry in both bedrooms so it can be washed
13. clean the bathroom
14. have more coffee
15. check on dinner
16. disinfect the bathroom
17. clean the pet room
18. have more coffee
19. start dinner side dishes
20. disinfect the pet room
21. clean the cat box
22. scrub the dog cage
23. vacuum the pet room and put down carpet powder
24. take a well deserved shower
25. check dinner
26. pick up D
27. eat dinner
28. SLEEP

i need to get moving, since its already nearly noon. i feel like i’ve wasted a day if i haven’t started anything by about 11:00. so. if i try to time myself, maybe i’ll get it done. i’m the sort of person who has to do that to get things done. and i’m also a crazy list maker. 🙂

idk

evrything i have ever done, i have felt was really part of me. everything about myself, i feel just fits. i am capricorn, VERY capricorn. my entire horoscope emphasizes how capricorn i am. i am an earth element, and everything in my life emphasizes that. i am a dark moon witch, rather appropriate i feel.  everything clicks in the right spot. is that weird? when people say, “oh thats just who i am”, i really mean it. it really is how i am. if i look at a horoscope online or in the paper, is has real meaning for me. maybe i’m just crazy

practicality

perhaps i am unorthodox, but i strive for practicality. i see no harm in reusing candles most of the time, although i cleanse them in between, and i have no set ritual tools. i try to keep my practice as practical as i can. i have no set spells either. i make up what i need as i need it. most of them arent even spells, they just make sense and work for me.

Is there anything special about saturdays?

well, here we are again. now it’s october. i want to write. maybe write enough books to open a metaphysical store. but who knows. i like the idea of having one. it would set me up for life, and i would have a place to get supplies. the more i thnk about it, the more i like the idea. the store profits would turn themselves over after a bit. i could write books to get it off the ground, and sustain it. i have ideas for a lot of stuff already. this could be the door to getting my house built, maybe opening a chain of stores for people like us, set up a retirement fund, and travel the world. i would have all kinds of neat stuff for sale, and a tarot reader too. i want to write fiction, but i’d like to do a cookbook too. hmmm…

 

never could get the hang of thursdays…

well, now i’m depressed. anyway, the day looks good. my check was a hundred more than i was hoping for, and thats 200 more than i was expecting. so, very good. i can pay the electric before they cut me off. although right now i just want to stay home and play with the adorable kitty cat who is vying for my complete attention. lots to do though. i should pay bge before work, but i dont see it happening. i see a shower with my new body wash which smells AWESOME, and sitting to draw for awhile. system of a down’s prison song is playing, and i feel good. hells, i might even wash the dishes…. nah. i should take some st. john’s wort to keep the good mood. my feelings are still really hurt by what L said, (L is the mother in law), but i’m pretty sure she didnt mean it to upset me, she probably didnt think i’d take it this way, right?

so, stuff to do:

1. pay bge
2. pay alley cat trash service
3. get gas
4. get groceries <at aldi’s not wal mart>
5. order propane before we run out

and on it goes. sigh. it sucks being an adult. cant i just be an angsty teenager forever? i was my most creative then, of course, i slashed my arms up all the time. creepily enough, i still want to, but D would be upset. I think self harm is addicting, and i’m not good at managing addictions. the craving is there, gnawing at me, like an itch i cant reach to scratch. i bought some coffee creamer this morning with milk and sugar, because the super expensive lactose free glucose free sugar free belly ache inducing powered creamer is just not cutting it.

btw, here is one of my facebook posts that i thought i would share with you:

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